08 November 2008
i can use my hse com. to play games le... finali can use le.... i shld b v happy... but.. hais dunno la..
ytd np nth much happen... but on de way home... i cry in de bus...
dun really knw y i cry... mayb i too angry den de fire in mi burst into tears ba....
reach home.. open com. play habbo... nt in gd mood so kip on scoldin ppl online...
de motto i go put si jy chou jy..zzz......
dunno y just put tat... act wan change de name to jb de.. but i mor angry with dis person...
i dunno y i angry but, just suddenly feel sad n angry...
i realli felt tat i'm lost n dunno wad to do...
dis feeling hav been with mi all along since de strt of dis yr.. i just cant shake de feeling away...
i'm lyk too paranoid n kip on tinking dis tinking tat...
i act created a cheer specially for de eoy camp fire.. i must b crazy...
last nite slept at 2+.. tinking dis n tat.. my studies n np... how m i goin to cope it nxt yr??... i dunno
nxt yr our pillar de sec3s n jb sir r stepping down... leaving us to fite de battle alone
i realli scared tat np will collapse in our hands...
ytd asked jy whether de pm tok boring nt... den he tell mi go ask ashraf..
ashraf say v interesting... so gd for dem lor... at least didnt waste de trip...
sumtyms tinking bak i feel tat my attitude reali hav a prob...
i feel tat i've changed yr by yr .. changed into a paranoid n annoying person...
i'm now reali diff frm wad i m in pri sch... bcomin worse n worse...
evy1 around mi feel reali taxing toking to mi n listening to mi...
i'm lyk a disturbance to dem...
i realli wanna b a gd fren but i just cant change bak to wad i m in pri sch...
i realli dun wan to b an annoying person...
i wan to b independent so tat i wun hav to rely on others on evy single ting i do....
when i'm lost.. i dunno hu to turn to... in de past i sms jy when i'm vex n unhappi...
but soon i find tat i shldnt disturb him all de tym n ask him stupit qns... he will oni feel annoyed.
so now i no1 to turn to... so i cry lor..hahas... tat sounds stupit...
act i realli lyk him... but i knw tat he dun lyk mi, so i tried to avoid n forget him..
but i just cant get him out of my mind... evytym i tink of dis.. i realli feel lyk banging de wall...
hais... tis cant b force;)... trying to get dis sentence into my mind....
now wad shld i do ne... i tink i'll just wait patiently for de chalet n pray tat de eoy camp will b ova asap...
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6:34 PM
huiyi..xp
