27 May 2009
omg.. i hate today
my mood was totali dampened..
1st is pop den folo by nyaa..FREAK!!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
evyting just crop up all at once.. wth!!!!!!
stupit teachers n prefects.. STOP giving mi empty promises..
all de excuses u all wil giv is "forget".. do u knw hw much tt word sux!!
nvm forget it.. i HATE ALL OF U!!!!!!zzzz
i m outcasted just bcos of tt retarded word.....
pop pop pop pop pop
wth is tt.. i knw nth abt it.. im in de recre dpt but it seems lyk other ppl knw mor tings den mi..
wad for i stay tere n b an idiot..
im nt in charge of aniting..
u all tell mi ova c de process..
but wad can i do?? totali nth for mi to do..
other ppl all gt job scope n they r incharge of sumting.. nt lyk mi.. just an onlooker.. nobody
pop seems lyk none of my buisness n i dunno de plannings n wad my squadmates r doing..
tis sux!!!!!!!!!!! totali sux!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m outcasted again
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8:18 PM
huiyi..xp
15 May 2009
kan zhe bu xi..
xin hui tong
yan lei hui diao luo...
hui xiang qi wang shi
zuo chu le xuan ze
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11:25 PM
huiyi..xp
12 May 2009
having a gd mood at de strt of de day n 1 retarded issue spoils de entire day..zzzzzzzzzzzz
i wan to tell tt person hu spoils it n gav mi a cold shoulder today..
"wth la.. u said we cld b frens n tis is wad u meant.. if u wan b strangers den just tell me directly la.. giv mi tt damn attitude for wad..freak!!!!!
nw my mood is completly dampened by u..
its so nt worth it but i just cant help being reali maddd......." :@
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8:51 PM
huiyi..xp
08 May 2009
had chi n emaths exam ytd..
emaths nv complete paper.. 4qn nv do den 30+ marks flew away..
chi cmi.. so damn difficult.. worse paper i had dis yr..
chi paper 1st 10qn was lyk killing mi..
spent 20min on tt.. (total waste of precious time)..
had lit n eng today..
i nv study for lit so de paper is gone case de..
eng was ok.. paper nt v difficult..(best eng paper i had tis yr)
nw feeling v empty..
nth betta to do so typing crap nw..
hw wil ppl feel aft dey hav achieved their goals or lost their aims..
wil dey b happy?? or will dey feel lost of directions??
its simply ironic n dumb..
tings cld b simple n oso complicated..
depending on hw we c dem..
feeling sad out of simply no reasons sounds so stupid n wrong..
tere must b a reason to evyting..
ya so tt includes me too..
feeling sad n empty cos i do nt hav a clear view of my aims n wants..
wan to kip him by my side but knw tt i cant..
tts just simply horrible..
my life seems to b upset..
is it a joke or wad??
cant we even b frens??.. i knw tt its no longer possible...
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10:57 PM
huiyi..xp
05 May 2009
i reali wanna find sum1 to tok to..
but evy1 seems to b busy with their studies n personal stuff..
i dun dare to sms ppl tt im nt close to..
or dey wil find it wierd n being irritated by mi..
can i just hav a listening
ear?? ;
8:22 PM
huiyi..xp
03 May 2009
dotz.. ytd nite dunno hu go giv km my no....
(shld b ks giv de ba)
quite shock to receive his msg lor..
my mood wasnt v gd ytd..
so luckily he nv irritate mi..
if nt he'll get a rundown frm mi..=x
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8:17 PM
huiyi..xp
02 May 2009
just watch finish de whole ep of mvp情人..
its a v outdated show le..
but dunno y just feel lyk watching it again..
i lyk 2 of de songs in it..我難過n 存在..
de story line n meaning brought bak several memories..
i dunno but i just suddenly tink of ks..
de words he said.. de tings i've done...
frm de start when we r frens.. til nw... strangers...:'(
i've done him wrong twice..
n cos of tt he hav lost trust in mi..
without trust can we stil b frens..
i guess nt... tt'll reali b a barrier between us.. a barrier tt we cant hit off..
i've hurt him reali badly last tym n i reali regret it..
when i finali realise.. its tooooo latee....
i tried contacting him aft tt but..
soon we just bcame strangers...
he forgotten evyting v quickly..
sumtyms i reali doubt tt wad he said is true or izzit just yi shi de cong dong
he doesnt even giv mi de tym to tink of wad i reali wans..
his thought changed so fast.. so fast within 4 day n i'm just late by a few hours...
evyting is bak to de past.. nth changed...
but my heart felt v empty...
i feel sad dunno y..
wheneva i hav aniting troubling mi or my mood is down..
i just feel lyk toking to him.. but i knew i cant
i deleted his no. to stop myself frm smsing him..
but de freaking ting is tt i've his no. stuck in my brain.. i just cant shake it off..
when i watch de show i cried...
cos i knew i hav lost a fren.. sum1 mor den just a fren.....
i'll continue stopping myself frm contacting him..
n time wil mak mi forget abt de pain ba...
i hav to face de fact of losing sum1 n tts fate..
at tis point of tym i cant change anyting..
i can oni let it pass...
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3:15 AM
huiyi..xp
