20 December 2009
sorry to let all de sec3s n cis down during the camp..
im weak n i deserve de demotion.
sorry to cause so much trouble for the sec3s.
n for the sec2s i hope tt u all wil accept me as ur new squadmates frm now onwards.
im weak i dun deserve to b an instructor.
just wanna clarify sumting
i'm nt feeling well..
my legs r v weak n i can hardly lift dem up animor n my head is very giddy.. tts y i cant tak it animor n needs to fall out.
it is not tt i cant tak it animor as an instructor.
aniway im weak. SORRY to evy1 who pin hopes on me.
I deserve the demotion. I'm nt fit to be an instructor.
to all the sec4s, thx for coming for the campfire n sorry for making u all wait so long...
i'll try to earn back my rank, but if i cant.. i reali dunno wad right do i hav to stay in np. im just a letdown.
sorry
i reali wanted sum1 hu i can tok to now
i dunno y when i face the CIs or TOs my tears just drop rapidly.
I simply cant control it.i dunno y m i soo weak now. i can tak it last yr.. but y tis yr i can't?
y i fall out during a show parade?! y..
i wanted consoles but i simply dun deserve dem...
i let so mani ppl down.evy1 gave up on mi... tts reality...
i've to b responsible for my own actions.
i'm v scared tt de CIs scold me again.. tis yr..its de 1st tym tt im soo afraid of them... i dun dare to face dem animor.. i wan to escape..
i dunno if i'l b given animor chances to earn bak my rank...all my past efforts r wasted n im nowhere now.
jus in de mid of space vacuum nth
i cant rely on the sec3s animor they r no longer my squadmates. they r my instructors.when i ask them qn dey told me is my own decisions.. i realise sumting.. i should nt disturb them animor.
sec2s.. wil dey tak mi as their squadmate?? or jus simply an outsider...can i blend in with their squad?... or shld i just leave
~~can i tok to ani1~~
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8:16 PM
huiyi..xp
